Saturday, February 10, 2007

If I Loved You . . .

I found this fun little diagnostic test on the web that tells you how tightly wrapped you are. The good news is it looks like my weekly sessions with my shrink are paying huge dividends. The bad news is that it looks like I’m a narcissistic, self-adoring, self-important, self-(fill in the blank)! The truth is, I am. But I’m not sorry about it one little bit. It took me a long time to even feel worthy of being loved – deserving even. Ok, perhaps I’m still compensating in an unhealthy way a little bit according to the results of the test, but I’m not so sure that loving yourself is such a bad idea. It just might be the sanest thing I do! Loving myself is sort of a new phenomenon for me. And it took so long to get there. God! I was closed to love for so many years – so afraid to love, even myself. And then one day with the help of my therapist, I waded into the stream of love. And then life started happening in a good way. Life is good. Just plain good.

Paranoid Disorder:Low
Schizoid Disorder:Low
Schizotypal Disorder:Low
Antisocial Disorder:Low
Borderline Disorder:Low
Histrionic Disorder:Moderate
Narcissistic Disorder:High
Avoidant Disorder:Low
Dependent Disorder:Low
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:Low

-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! --
Personality Disorders --

(I know these tests can't be taken THAT seriously - but I'll check with my shrink on Monday just to be sure!!!!)


la vie en rose said...

i'm with you on this...self-love is the healthiest thing we can do and if some test chooses to call it narcissistic so be it..

Dennis said...

Amen Sister!

Poet with a Day Job said...

Dennis - you know I did this test and found out I should be locked up! Who knew such a nut case could be so high functioning!

Dennis said...

Poet - I'm sorry to hear that you failed miserably! I truly believe (in my world anyway) that most people have a surprising number of neurosis and complexes - most of which are below their level of consciousness. The good news is that for the most part, we're curable! Surprisingly though, many people like having problems and wear them like badges!

Meander said...

i am browsing blogs this evening and found yours. i am glad i did. by putting yourself out here you are helping others.

GeL(Emerald Eyes) said...

HI Dennis,
Sorry I've not been around much since discovering you through Poetry T.

Loving yourself is so important and unfortunately, very difficult for many of us. I wonder if this web test, terms "self love" as narcissitic? There is a huge difference!

I'm glad the sessions w/ your therapist are helping. WE have ice here so internet goes in and out or I'd take the quiz first before commenting.
Enjoy your Valentine's Day!

madd said...

Dennis..Happy Valentines Day!!!just wanted to stop by and give you lots of hugs and kisses..and yes to love oneself is the start of a life long relationship!!heard that somewhere and just thought it was great. Take care my friend..XOXOXOXo
p.s. sorry haven't slammed..will as soon as I can..XOXOXO a few more for the road..:)

Dennis said...

Gel & Madd - thanks for stopping by and thanks for the kind words (especially all the hugs and kisses Madd!) I hope your Valentines Day was great! Mine was. See you soon.

Paul said...

Just don't get your hands on the DSM or you'll drive yourself crazy...!

At least the way that I recall it read when I was getting my counseling degree, most mental illnesses are described along the lines of "if six of the following ten behaviors apply to you then you're... whatever."

So it's always easy to find some of your own tendencies under one thing or another.

dogfaceboy said...

I'm high histrionic and narcissistic and moderate obsessive compulsive. I already knew that.

Dennis said...

Leslie, Thanks for sharing that. I actually think that's a good thing! You're probably very effective and can get a lot of things done. Thanks for playing along.